That moment when you realize that how can you fall again if you fell but no did ever notice that you fell and you just lye there broken and numb.

When you feel like life is totally unfair. When you feel like giving up and not fight those battles anymore. When you feel like crying but no tears falling, you just stare at nowhere thinking of a better life.

Life is not fair. It’s always unfair no matter what you do. People will judge. People will hate. People will betray. Love will fade. But sometimes i ask myself. Why am i sad? Why can’t i be happy. I was contended with the life i have. In fact i’m blessed. I have 3 meals a day. I have a bed to sleep at night. A house to keep me safe and warm. Clothes to keep me safe and covered.

But sometimes i complain. The family i have. The friends i have. And the life i have. Did i deserve this? Did i deserve to be betrayed and to feel unloved. Your over reacting, some says. Am i? Do i deserve this? All my life i did good. I lied sometimes but ask forgiveness to the lord above. I ask him when do i see the better life? When can i see those lights? But now i have to cope with the darkness and loneliness.